1 word sums it all up, i am a passionate person. haha!

When I love, I love whole heartedly

When I’m pissed, I breathe fire

When I’m sad, I cry a river

When I’m happy, I’m bursting with sunshine

When I’m bored, I’m daydream

When I read a book, I tend to get lost in it

When I’m lazy, I’m idle

When I’ve had enough, I stopped trying

When I’m afraid, I go into hiding

When I feel hate, I chose to ignore

When I’m tired, I call it quits dont give a damn anymore

When I make an effort, I gave my best shot

When I’m disappointed, I tried to figure it out

When I’m cleaning, I need to get every nook n crook clean

When I’m sleepy, I miss the bed awfully bad (especially at work: p)

When people stole my shoe, I wanted to throw stones at them…grrr…

I forgive, but I don’t forget

I think my shoe got stolen :(

My white nike is gone. From my shoe rack.

I can’t find it this morning when I want to wear it. Normally I put it in on the shoe rack, cos it’s a pair of older shoes compared to the rest.

And I always wear it, what reason to put it in a shoe cupboard?

Yesterday or the day before (I can’t remember exactly) I noticed a certain emptiness on my shoe rack when I came home from work while I was taking off my shoe.

But it never crossed my mind yet.

This morning, when I wanted to wear it, I couldn’t find it. I took a quick glance in the shoe cupboard, and it’s not there.

Then I asked kh whether he got move my shoe or not, he said he did not.

I shall go home and look for another round in the shoe cupboard, and I hope it’s there. Although my skepticism tells me it is not.

And now I’m a tad worried because I forgot to put my hush puppies in the cupboard but it’s still on the shoe rack.

At the same place I always put it, which was supposedly next to the missing nike now.

I can’t believe this is actually happening to me! sigh…

And I told kh, if it was stolen, so help me god I do not bump into the person who stole it while he/she (high chances is a SHE) is wearing it.

Because my shoe is easily recognizable, I got them resoled sometime back. So there are 2 patches of black rubber near the heel for better grip.  

 

Lik told me its time to get new shoes. Well, I do have new shoes. But I still like my old ones. It’s been with me for the past 2years.

p/s: i shall update tonight, after i re-confirm that it is really GONE!

sucky day

sucky night. those four words sums it all.

p/s: i have always hated explaining myself. Thou shalt know…

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On a somber different note, What Sarah Said – death cab for cutie

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I’d already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said that “Love is watching someone die”

So who’s going to watch you die?..

killing time

Date : 22nd November 2008
Time : 10.15pm
Venue : debug lab

I am stuck in the lab, waiting patiently while the clock ticks away in US. Literally!
I had to wait in the lab to call to CTMC to give them my Amex credit card so they can bill Intel directly for my medical bill.
I can’t submit a MyExpense report until the they charge Intel because then the bill won’t be reflected in the system. Sigh…. I was told by the voice recorder that their billing department starts from 8am to 6pm. Much to my chagrin, when I called direct extension of the billing deparment, nobody picked up and I was routed to the front desk.
And according to the lady at the front desks, billing department staff usually comes in at 9am, and leaves at 5.30pm.
Lo and behold, here I am. I can’t drag this any longer because Xmas and New Year is only 2 days away, so my bet is many are already on leave.

Kh was out playing badminton just now when I came in, because I thought this would only take a minute, so I came into to Intel by myself to make the call.
But I don understand now why Austin is no longer 13hours behind us, but instead it is 14hrs now according to the lady at the front desk.
So in order to call at 9am, I have to wait until 11pm here.
Anyways, back to first sentence of this paragraph. I came in alone because I thought this would take awhile. But here I am stuck until 11pm, at the very least.
Kh asked me if I wanted him to come in to accompany me, and I said no, while all the time in my head the answer is a resounding Yes!
So I had committed the very sin that I preach to myself never to, which is to say No when I actually meant Yes. -_-
Boo… shame on me…

On the bright side, Pei Lynn called me today, saying she has something to pass to me. and I’m guessing maybe it is one of her infamous banana bread or cookies.
But never in my life would I expected her to give me gingerbread man cookies. And they are oh-so-cute!~
I wanted to snap a picture to post it up here but my stupid modem/router was giving me problem at home just now, so I cant get connected.
I probably will do it tomorrow because by the time I reach home later, it will be too late and I would be too grumpy to get connected.
One thing I am sure of is, I will definitely snap a few pictures before they ended up in my tummy, and Kh’s.
Pei Lynn even put my initial and Kh’s on the body of the gingerbread man. Heeee… thanks again Pei Lynn. Words can never describe how I feel.
And thanks to Jenny for her souvenirs from Korea, and May for the Xmas card. Today is a happy day for me. up until this very moment.

Once I settle this, I am sure I would feel like a stone has been lifted off my shoulder. The hospital bill has been bugging me ever since the moment the bill came in the mail.
Delivered to Penang address. Huhu~
Fucking Bloody usd220 for a urine test, usd25 a pop for a vicodin, and another usd489 for emergency room admittance.
So to all the folks out there, unless you are dying, do not go to the hospital in the United States. Medical care really cost a FORTUNE there. That is why insurance is a big thing in US.

p/s: at least I got a pop of Vicodin, House’s very own version of candy

austin eh?

Well, I haven’t been blogging for ages, and Beejay expects me to start writing once kh gets back to US, but the main problem is I always have the idea to write at non-sensible times. Whenever I don’t have my laptop near me. or when I’m bathing, or on the plane (on the way from LA to Austin) and many more. always by the time I reached home, whatever I thought of has gone out of the window. Hehehe…  ;p

For starters today, I drove to work and I think I kind of remembered how to get here. But I still have no idea how to get back to the hotel straight from the office. Ha! Cos most of the times we went straight to dinner and then siew cuong will just direct me home, or to daniel’ house. So that really does not help with me memorizing how to get around.

Yes the GPS will come in handy but I still don’t want to rely on that tool… yet….. maybe during weekends shopping bloodbath I would need to use that if I were to get around on my own.

I really hope kim yew’s trip gets approved.

 

Well the flight to US isn’t a nice soothing one. I had the luck of getting aisle seats with 2 empty seats beside me and then another lady on the aisle seats on the right side. So supposedly I can be very comfortable or can extend my leg over to empty seats, but alas, the aunty on my right side of the aisle seat requested for her daughter and her baby grandson to sit between us.

So there goes my nap time. -_-

Food in hong kong airport sucks.. prollie I did not go and try those expensive dim sum. Sure as hell will do that when I’m on my flight back. 8 hours of waiting time in HK airport…

 

Fast forward, it has been almost a week of me being here. I reached here like slightly over midnight of Friday, and tomorrow is Friday here! Thank god.

Do I like here? Well that’s what every has been asking. I don’t really like to be here, truth to be told. Everyday my tester slots starts from 5pm onwards, and that makes me very tired at the end of the day, considering the fact that I do not have the night building pass yet, and I don’t even have lab access so for these past few days, once I enter lab, I cant get out of it until I’m done. Today I was damn grumpy, tired and cold by the time I’m done that I just heated up the leftover from lunch (thank god for that, just 2 pieces of sweet potato, 1 capsicum and 1 spring roll), went over to lock up the units in my drawers and then proceeded to make a cup of hot cocoa (but coco sachets was finished!) so I just ate my dinner after it was heated up with a glass of sprite. I took 1 piece of sweet potato, filled up half a cup of Sprite and then balanced the plate on the glass and went down to lobby to go to the car park. Halfway through I lost balance and the capsicum just rolled off the plate. Damn there goes 1 piece. So I quickly stuffed the other piece of sweet potato I was eating and grabbed the spring roll before it fell. Hehee…

 

So again I keyed in the add of the hotel in the gps, got lost again in neverland, and finally found my way home. The gps was damn slow in giving instructions I got to the hotel even without its help once I see it from far. It has a green light circling the building. And thank god for that. Stupid slow dumb witted gps. Of course given time it actually helps, but I learnt not to trust it when it says “exit to the freeway on the left, etc etc”

Cos it has tendency to announce exits to left and right when I don’t even have to turn into, but just keep a straight path. So as long as I keep looking at the route it highlighted, and ignored whatever rubbish it is saying, I think I fare much better compared to yesterday.

Oh ya, just in case you are wondering, I got a silver camry to drive around here. I will post the pics up once I take it. damn lazy. Hahaa…

 

Now is like 1215pm, and I’m gonna go to bed soon after eating grapes and brushing teeth. I’m so homesick even I myself cant believe it. >.<

 

jason mraz’s songs

are so nice and melancholic with meaningful lyrics. some makes you nostalgic, some makes you sad, some makes you go “aww… so sweet…” hehee.. n it makes me miss my dear even more… huhu…. sob sob… next week is the week when decision will be made, and somehow deep in my heart there is a piece of me that is reluctant to hope for something that i had wish for a long time, cos ironically, i want to be with kh when he gets back. sigh… it’s funny when things happen dont always go as you wanted them to be. but i’ll try my best to still be involved in the planning dear, execution part, would need to come from you, dear… and running errands. sigh. i wished so much we can do that together. let’s wait and see how it goes k? muaks! i love you dear..

when you are home alone

1.       paranoia sets in

2.       whatever noise you heard, no matter how soft, seems to be amplified

3.       you double make sure you lock all your doors and windows (although I only lock main door and balcony door and bedroom door)

4.       you have troubles falling asleep even though you are tired as hell

5.       you lined the sides of your king sized bed with pillows as if they can protect you

6.       you sleep with an amulet on your pillow

7.       the room seems darker than usual once you switch off our light

8.       you keep waking up in the middle of the night

9.       you keep remembering how warm it is to have him next to you

10.   when you cant fall asleep, you imagine his face and his love and his warmth and everything bout him…..

the saddest part is, kh is not around to tuck me in for 2 months… sob sob sob………. LLL he always kisses me good nite and tucks me in under the covers… and hugged me awhile before we sleep… two down, a LOT more to cross off!!

p/s: I love you dear J

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